2010 has been a challenging year, in ways I can’t seem to pinpoint. It began with the most difficult phase of being a mother of 2 small children which lead to a breakdown, mentally and emotionally. I was forced to concede I was struggling, but in turn I learned how to recognise when I needed help and when I needed time off.
Then we had 2 huge shocks to the family as both my parents-in-law fell victim to life threatening health problems at different points in the year. We’ve been counting their blessings ever since.
And then finally my year ended with one last bout of illness and depression which seemed to come from nowhere, and for which I was poorly prepared. Perhaps it was the poor timing of longer nights, extreme weather conditions, cabin fever and hormones. Thankfully, this too has passed.
Not to say this year hasn’t had some truly fantastic moments too. But mostly, as 2010 draws to an end, I have looked back to find that this has been a year where I’ve really grown and changed. There’s not one single moment that I can attribute this to. Nor can I place my finger on what exactly has changed. All I know is that I feel more at peace with myself; I understand more of myself; I’ve let old grudges die; I’ve placed more priority on the important things in life to me; And I’ve taken a good look around me to really appreciate all the things that I am lucky to have in my life.
I have 5 resolutions for 2011:
2) Go to the bank
3) Practice forgiveness
4) Appreciate my Mum more
5) Make time for family – it’s the most important thing and you never know how long you’ll have it for.
Happy New Year everyone.